Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Never What You Expect

   Sometimes, you do, say or write things and wait with bated breathe for a reaction. Most times (if you're waiting for a reaction) you think it's going to be a bad one. It has happened to me alot over the course of my life. As I sit down and give away my honest feelings I always feel like they will ultimately be rejected and that the recipient of the honesty will shut me down. Since I've started trying to live a truthful authentic life, I have to choosen to do those things...be truthful, be authentic...although I try not to hurt people, I do know that in order for me to grow I have to give my truth to the world.
    In recent weeks I've had conversations and correspondence with various people in my life and what I've found is the opposite of what I expected. Giving the truth can hurt and as I've waited for responses from all I have tried to imagine what those responses might be. I've also tried to prepare myself to stand strong and faithful, knowing that I'm on the path God wants me to be on and that He is guiding me preparing me for my future.
    I have been surprised and I'm grateful for the reactions, I'm humbled by the knowledge that when I took steps of faith I have been rewarded. I know for sure that God's hand is definitely in the decisions I've been making and that even though I've been scared, He hasn't once let me down.


   

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