Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Smile

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the light come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
hide every trace of saddness
although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile, if you just Smile

That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile, if you just smile


                                                            By Turner, Parson and Chaplin

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

The Beauty

Beauty, I wonder from where do you come
God's vast mind?
It could only be in that place of perfect peace that colors can blend so fairly

The earth His perfect canvas, once
only shows its perfect beauty in the hidden places

Only away from man can

a bird of brilliant blue soar through a sunlit sky,
clouds magnifying its feathers

Only away from man
that's where you find ice so dangerous it can kill
yet so lovely it can melt your heart

Away from man
is where Tolkien's perfectly described forests lay green and untouched
their voices on the winds singing God's praises

Beauty, you come from God
in the scamper of a squirrel
the gallop of wild horses
the rain soaking the earth
the tint in a persons eye
and the cry of a baby

all created here on His perfect canvas
painted from the wonder of His vast mind.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Writing

Writing is essential
it's a part of life
a direct link to my soul.
I am nothing more or less than
the words I scribble onto paper
around my worthiest triumphs
and greatest trajedies
nothing can compare to the finished thought completed on paper.
Escaped from my brain, burden no more
I see the world and translate it with my pen.
Brillant and meaningful I take stock of this journey looking back
at whats made me this way.
Chapters swim around chapters, my words shape the tide.
I am my thoughts, my words...
the pen is my body
the ink my blood
I pour my life onto paper
I seek freedom in words.
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Thursday, October 14, 2010

Wanting something, but really wanting something else.

    (for the sake of the person I'm about to write about I'm changing her name. However, she reads this blog and will undoubtedly know it's about her and if she doesn't well...okay)


     I met this cool chick named Blithe a little less than two years ago. She's cool (as I said in the last sentence) over time I feel like our relationship went from acquaintances to friends. We've talked about all kinds of things and I've learned a ton from her. She once shared with me her bucket list (not in it's entirety, but some of the bigger things). I honestly only remember two of them...they were big. 1. To live out of the US for a year and 2. To have a baby. I remember these because she was on her way (like a bullet out of a gun) to fulfilling the first goal and because one day she told me she had changed her mind about the second. That kind of shocked me, but her reasoning was sound. Still, I couldn't shake the feeling that even though she was saying it, I wasn't sure she believed it (which made me not really believe it).
   She moved away to pursue her dream and an opportunity, no looking back or making excuses (she's a jumper). Right before her big life restart she got the news that her journey to living aboard hit a snag, but she was still of the mind that she'd live among the people and help change the world (just later rather than sooner). Then something happened. Something she didn't expect. You see, prior to leaving she had this world wind romance (literally) and she fell hard and fast...but he's dreams and hers didn't mesh and they parted, but not without hurt and maybe a little guilt. Blithe was sadden, but wasn't going to let that slow her down. I think the last thing she expected after heartbreak was to find love. A love she's described as being deeper than she thought possible. That love has made her rethink her bucket list.
    It never surprised me that she would forgo that world changing mentality when she found the person she really wanted and needed, who really wanted and needed her. In fact, when I first read her words, I knew that her world was about to change more than she realized. I knew she'd make a decision that would spin her like a top. I also knew that the true desires of her heart would be fulfilled while she was trying to save the world.
   This cool chick, this kick ass woman who taught me about what type of chick I want to be has found what she wants. Not only has she found it, but she's taking hold of it and moving toward it...jumping feet first into a life that a year ago she didn't see coming. So she traded one bucket list thing for another...it's not bad... it's awesome. My heart became so overjoyed at the prospect of seeing her pregnant, holding her babies and chasing them around that I almost began to cry. She is what I can say I see when God is working without us even knowing.
    To my friend Blithe...Welcome to your new world. I wish you great joys, hope and especially love for the rest of your life. I only ask that you remember Melanie is a great name for a kid! ;  )

Wednesday, October 06, 2010

2nd times the charm?

   I've said it before, I want to give up Facebook. I even did it (for about 2 weeks), but then I went back like a crack head to a pipe. I couldn't help myself, it was like I was....a crack head. I am addicted to facebook. But I don't know why. Maybe it's because it's an easy way to keep in touch with the people I really enjoy or spent a moment in time with and this is the only way I have to continue my connection with them...actually that's the true. I am connected with High School, Jr. High School and previous work friends on Facebook. I'm connected with people I love, who I don't get to see all the time and I'm connected with the whole world at large (at least that's how it feels sometimes). I used to be like that with Myspace and I moved on to facebook and though I'm not as plastered to fb as I once was, I still can't help but log on at least once a day and check out what's going on. Its sad really.

   So I'm going to try the experiment once more, but instead of quitting cold turkey, I'm going to easy myself off my drug. I'm going to go on less and less until I don't have to go on anymore. I may never actually close my account, I may just leave it there and check in occasionally just to say hi and find out whats going on in people's lives. I don't need to be on it...it shouldn't control me. Besides, there are other things I should be doing....like writing, taking photographs and advancing my MK business.