Goodbye Love
cheers to what could have been
there was hope in my eyes
longing in my heart
but this thing is not meant to be.
our paths are changing
sending us down different lanes
I hope that I will be a fond sweet memory to you as you are to me
Good Luck, My Love
in all you do
may someone someday see what I see in you
and when she comes to take your heart
I pray that it'll be forever safe in her hands
but until that day I'll take great joy in the rush I feel at the sound of your name.
Goodbye Love
so long, fair well
until the day we meet again
in my heart you'll always dwell.
Monday, February 22, 2010
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Done with it
A couple of weeks ago I went to family night at Momma Marias house. We (Maria, Danae, Aunite Ruby and I) were having a conversation ranging all topics...one thing struck me (of course it did, it was about me). Danae said that the one attribute of mine that she would like to have is my ability to quit some one and be done with it.
I like to say that when I'm wrong, I'm wrong and will own up to it. All I ask is that the other person do the same thing. However, that's not always the case and some times, some things that are done or said can just throw away an abundance of love...it's a simple word, pharse, look or even joke that has ended many a friendship.
I don't walk away from these relationships without a broken heart, generally I lay them by the side of the road because my heart can't bear to carry the burden any longer. I'm glad that Danae admires something about me. I'm glad that it's this thing...but I want her to truly know that I'm the kind of person that will let you break my heart repeatedly before I finally give you up....Usually I'm the one most of the damage is done to and I only let go because I need to to stay sane!
I'm at the point right now, where I'm standing on a cliff...my feet are ready to jump...I can look at the bottom and see the people God has placed there to catch me. Not everyone in my life is standing down there, so inevitably for my own sanity...for my own walk...for me to be able to reach out and truly connect with God I have to let some relationships go by the way aside.
I've been telling myself that I need to nuture relationships, that I need to build up good ones and let the unsaveable ones go...that's true, for my sanity...maybe that's selfish, but I have to do what's best...for me!
Until Next Time!
Friday, February 19, 2010
Rudeness
As I was reading the Bill Cosby rant and in the wake of things I have recently experienced I have been led to believe that people just don'thave manners anymore. I'm speaking in generalized terms here, but I think that you can all see my point. People don't do the simpliest of things. A lot of people don't even say Thank You anymore.
There was a time when a man would lay down his coat over a puddle so that a lady could walk over it, now not only do men not do that, but they are so rude in general that they'll call a woman out of her name (their woman, in fact).
Do we all have moments of rudeness yes! Out of frustration or the excuse of being in a foul mood, all people have the capacity to be rude and mean. But to walk into a room and upon entering blech so loudly it can be heard down the hall is just wrong. What's worse is the culprit sees nothing wrong with it at all, they think it's fine. I know that because they don't take the time to say excuse or even attempt to quell the act to begin with. I agree with Mr. Cosby on so many levels, but I also believe that we all have a choice in what we become.
Mr. Cosby contens that people are the way they are because their parents didn't do their jobs. I agree with that statement in part. Because we have a choice too, we can grow up and become a true product of our environment (good or bad) or we can choose to step out and become something more (or less)! As an adult we make the choice. We decide if we want to live this way. If we are going to take it or if we are going to stand up and realize that we deserve to be treated and to act with respect...let's face it, the act of being rude is an act of disrespect. We know the essentials of it and still we are a disrespectful people. We teach children to say please and Thank You, but if we don't show the example then they will grow up to be just as rude as we are!
I'm just sayin'
There was a time when a man would lay down his coat over a puddle so that a lady could walk over it, now not only do men not do that, but they are so rude in general that they'll call a woman out of her name (their woman, in fact).
Do we all have moments of rudeness yes! Out of frustration or the excuse of being in a foul mood, all people have the capacity to be rude and mean. But to walk into a room and upon entering blech so loudly it can be heard down the hall is just wrong. What's worse is the culprit sees nothing wrong with it at all, they think it's fine. I know that because they don't take the time to say excuse or even attempt to quell the act to begin with. I agree with Mr. Cosby on so many levels, but I also believe that we all have a choice in what we become.
Mr. Cosby contens that people are the way they are because their parents didn't do their jobs. I agree with that statement in part. Because we have a choice too, we can grow up and become a true product of our environment (good or bad) or we can choose to step out and become something more (or less)! As an adult we make the choice. We decide if we want to live this way. If we are going to take it or if we are going to stand up and realize that we deserve to be treated and to act with respect...let's face it, the act of being rude is an act of disrespect. We know the essentials of it and still we are a disrespectful people. We teach children to say please and Thank You, but if we don't show the example then they will grow up to be just as rude as we are!
I'm just sayin'
Monday, February 15, 2010
At Peace
I realized the other day that I'm at peace. The fact that I'm openly stating it is bound to bring some kind of turmoil to my life, but I'm happy and relaxed. I'd been feeling like the weight of the world was on me. Once I started to reveal my unhappiness to the world I saw that change. I experienced it, I relish it.
Over the course of this journey I've learned some things about myself and the people around me. I've been given compliments in the form of trust and I've been surrounded by love. I'm truly at peace. But this isn't my doing...I believe that God allowed me to go through these things. To find myself in the situations so that I can lean on him, and he could reveal his people to me.
Is life perfect, no...and it never will be, but for now...in this moment. My life is peaceful, happy and filled with love.
Thank God for that!
Over the course of this journey I've learned some things about myself and the people around me. I've been given compliments in the form of trust and I've been surrounded by love. I'm truly at peace. But this isn't my doing...I believe that God allowed me to go through these things. To find myself in the situations so that I can lean on him, and he could reveal his people to me.
Is life perfect, no...and it never will be, but for now...in this moment. My life is peaceful, happy and filled with love.
Thank God for that!
Ring
For those of you who've seen me recently you may have noticed a new ring I've been wearing. I'm wearing it on my left hand ring finger as a symbol...it's an understanding between God and I. And it's something to remind me of a promise I've made to Him and that He made to me. If you're wondering where the idea came from I'll give you the background.
My first job was at the Christian Elementary/Jr High school my brother and I attended. One of my favorite kids there was named Cindy. And when she was 15 she had a quinceanera. In the ceremony she was presented with a ring that signified a promise that her father was making to her. That until she found a man to marry he (her father) would be the man to care for her, love her and take care of her. I always thought that was a very special and significant gesture and wished that my father would have thought to do something like that for me. (it didn't happen)
So I decided to do it for myself, the ring I bought is a metaphor. That God is the man in my life until I find that one man that I can truly rely on to love me. That man I can truly love. Everyone who's asked me about it has asked if some guy gave it to me...why? I gave it to myself, and I'm happy with that. It's small and special to me. That's all that matters.
So if you see me rocking my ring, just know that as of now, I'm being taken care of by the one man I know won't hurt me, disappoint me, make me cry and who gave up everything for me. If that's not worthy of at least a ring...then I don't know what is!
Until Next Time!
My first job was at the Christian Elementary/Jr High school my brother and I attended. One of my favorite kids there was named Cindy. And when she was 15 she had a quinceanera. In the ceremony she was presented with a ring that signified a promise that her father was making to her. That until she found a man to marry he (her father) would be the man to care for her, love her and take care of her. I always thought that was a very special and significant gesture and wished that my father would have thought to do something like that for me. (it didn't happen)
So I decided to do it for myself, the ring I bought is a metaphor. That God is the man in my life until I find that one man that I can truly rely on to love me. That man I can truly love. Everyone who's asked me about it has asked if some guy gave it to me...why? I gave it to myself, and I'm happy with that. It's small and special to me. That's all that matters.
So if you see me rocking my ring, just know that as of now, I'm being taken care of by the one man I know won't hurt me, disappoint me, make me cry and who gave up everything for me. If that's not worthy of at least a ring...then I don't know what is!
Until Next Time!
Sunday, February 07, 2010
Blog Warrior
So Sidekick has an application called Blog Warrior, which allows me to update my blog from my phone. This is my first update, my first venture with this new thing.
I'm glad I got it, hopefully it'll work better then my facebook and twitter apps...we'll see though. I'm sure I will be using this thing a lot in the future! I'm really excited about it.
I have a plan for my next post, I'm going to give my two cents about the Tim Tebow commercial I referenced in my last post...it was basically overhyped, as most things in the media are! But I can't give too much away...
So this is it for now! Until Next Time
I'm glad I got it, hopefully it'll work better then my facebook and twitter apps...we'll see though. I'm sure I will be using this thing a lot in the future! I'm really excited about it.
I have a plan for my next post, I'm going to give my two cents about the Tim Tebow commercial I referenced in my last post...it was basically overhyped, as most things in the media are! But I can't give too much away...
So this is it for now! Until Next Time
Abortion, how do I feel about it?
This question popped in my head after I read an article today. There is this football player named Tim Tebow, he happens to be an outward Christian (who's claim to fame is wearing bible verses on his eye black and saying God Bless at the end of interviews). He and his mother are appearing in a television ad for Focus on the Family which will air during this years Super Bowl.
You see when Tim's mom was pregnant she got really ill, slipped into a coma...was given drugs...almost died and when she awoke was told the drugs that kept her alive could have serious ramifications on her unborn child. She was advised to have an abortion. As a Christian missionary, she choose to keep her baby, no matter what. Many people believe this will be the focus of the commercial (but no one really knows for sure), and women's groups all over the country are in an uproar about it. Saying this (football) is no place to push Christian propaganda. The article I read said simply this, Tim Tebow should be able to say what he wants, when he wants...and that's that. No matter what the world at large feels about his message he has the right to say it. I wholeheartedly agree.
Although I agree, it still made me question this topic that I've been very passionate about in the past. You may think because I'm a Christian that I stand with the right and say that abortion is wrong. But if you really know me, which honestly only a very few do, then you know that I would feel differently. So here's my take on the whole thing...
For me, abortion isn't an option, for me! I've known people who've had abortions...who've used it as their own form of birth control. I've never been angry at them...my heart has been sad...my mind has been sad that this is the only choice they could make...that they didn't have any other options (at least that they could see). I've never been angry enough to hate on them, call them a murderer or discourage...only the opposite...I've pour more love out to them.
For me abortion isn't the answer, for me, but I'm not in the position to define the answer for another woman. God gave us free will and in his infinite knowledge and wisdom he knew these questions would arise and he allowed them to. In my opinion, this topic has never really been about God. It's a cover in a layer of God, but it's not about Him.
Christians call it murder, yet they've killed in the name of God for hundreds of years (including blowing up clinics). They say this isn't of God but, in turn, call the victims of rape or child molestation seeking a remedy a slut. And in truth, how many Christians have snuck their teenage daughters (or mistresses) into clinics to have it done?
Would I do it now, NO...but as the victim of molestation as a child...if I had found myself in this unfortunate situation I would have done it without looking back and I would not force any young girl or woman who fell victim to endure it either.
You may be reading this thinking I'm a bad Christian...that's fine. But I can't judge a woman's decision, it's not my place. Every woman is entitled to make a decision for herself. Then she will stand before her god and tell her story.
This whole uproar about the commercial is disturbing to me. The ad hasn't aired, no one has seen it or really knows what it's about...so far it's all speculation. I mean, it could be about how not all home schooled kids are freaks! or it could be about missions work. I'm disturbed that these groups of women who fight for freedoms would try to deny another group their freedom of speech. And that people, is what it all comes down to! Denying people their freedoms.
This country was built on freedom, for white men. Along the way everyone else had to fight to get any little bit of it. And along the way "God's" chosen people (as they've always called themselves) have stood up against them. This is just another form and shape of the same story.They call this murder...well if it's murder, then let's bring our service men and women home (ALL OF THEM), if this is murder then stop the death penalty, if this is indeed murder then we have to stop ALL murder...period.
For me, abortion is not in my plans, but until we can stop rapists and child molesters then I will view is as a necessary thing. And I'll forever be sadden by the women who choose it as a response to their mistakes. But I won't take their right to chose away.
Neither should you.
You see when Tim's mom was pregnant she got really ill, slipped into a coma...was given drugs...almost died and when she awoke was told the drugs that kept her alive could have serious ramifications on her unborn child. She was advised to have an abortion. As a Christian missionary, she choose to keep her baby, no matter what. Many people believe this will be the focus of the commercial (but no one really knows for sure), and women's groups all over the country are in an uproar about it. Saying this (football) is no place to push Christian propaganda. The article I read said simply this, Tim Tebow should be able to say what he wants, when he wants...and that's that. No matter what the world at large feels about his message he has the right to say it. I wholeheartedly agree.
Although I agree, it still made me question this topic that I've been very passionate about in the past. You may think because I'm a Christian that I stand with the right and say that abortion is wrong. But if you really know me, which honestly only a very few do, then you know that I would feel differently. So here's my take on the whole thing...
For me, abortion isn't an option, for me! I've known people who've had abortions...who've used it as their own form of birth control. I've never been angry at them...my heart has been sad...my mind has been sad that this is the only choice they could make...that they didn't have any other options (at least that they could see). I've never been angry enough to hate on them, call them a murderer or discourage...only the opposite...I've pour more love out to them.
For me abortion isn't the answer, for me, but I'm not in the position to define the answer for another woman. God gave us free will and in his infinite knowledge and wisdom he knew these questions would arise and he allowed them to. In my opinion, this topic has never really been about God. It's a cover in a layer of God, but it's not about Him.
Christians call it murder, yet they've killed in the name of God for hundreds of years (including blowing up clinics). They say this isn't of God but, in turn, call the victims of rape or child molestation seeking a remedy a slut. And in truth, how many Christians have snuck their teenage daughters (or mistresses) into clinics to have it done?
Would I do it now, NO...but as the victim of molestation as a child...if I had found myself in this unfortunate situation I would have done it without looking back and I would not force any young girl or woman who fell victim to endure it either.
You may be reading this thinking I'm a bad Christian...that's fine. But I can't judge a woman's decision, it's not my place. Every woman is entitled to make a decision for herself. Then she will stand before her god and tell her story.
This whole uproar about the commercial is disturbing to me. The ad hasn't aired, no one has seen it or really knows what it's about...so far it's all speculation. I mean, it could be about how not all home schooled kids are freaks! or it could be about missions work. I'm disturbed that these groups of women who fight for freedoms would try to deny another group their freedom of speech. And that people, is what it all comes down to! Denying people their freedoms.
This country was built on freedom, for white men. Along the way everyone else had to fight to get any little bit of it. And along the way "God's" chosen people (as they've always called themselves) have stood up against them. This is just another form and shape of the same story.They call this murder...well if it's murder, then let's bring our service men and women home (ALL OF THEM), if this is murder then stop the death penalty, if this is indeed murder then we have to stop ALL murder...period.
For me, abortion is not in my plans, but until we can stop rapists and child molesters then I will view is as a necessary thing. And I'll forever be sadden by the women who choose it as a response to their mistakes. But I won't take their right to chose away.
Neither should you.
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