Like a Train Wreck

Hey All,

I few months ago I told you that I decided not to waste my time on reality TV anymore. Well, that was before I learned that two out of my four favorites of all time were coming back.
Yes this summer Sunset Tan and Dog the Bounty Hunter are returning to TV.
Now, I know what you're saying, "DOG? Really? That Dude's a racist"...maybe so, but that doesn't really surprise me, if you know anything about his background you could see that there was always potential for that kind of behavior. I'm not condoning it, just saying you can't deny it and I can't deny the fact that I LOVE THIS SHOW and his crazy family. Just the sure "white trashiness" of it all makes it so much more wonderful!
Then there's Sunset Tan, which is pure trash and I love every heart numbing moment of it. It started off like a true car wreck, I watched it, thought it was stupid, but couldn't take my eyes off it, it's been off the air for a year and a half and now it's back, I'm soooo happy!
So, I guess this post is to tell you all that I have gone back on my word I will continue to watch some reality TV, but only two shows....until Real Housewives of the OC comes back...then there's 3

It's amazing sometimes how the people around you see, hear and watch you more then you know and they figure you out. Sometimes they come out and surprise you with this knowledge when you least expect it.
My best friend is like that. I was lying on my bed thinking about something she said to me that really surprised me because it was something that I personally would have never thought about myself, but deep inside knew I needed. She does that kind of stuff all the time and it always surprises me. It's rare that you find that kind of person in your life, but I'm so glad that I have them. Yes, them !I have no than one of those kind of people in my life.
It good to know that when you think you're invisible to the world, you really aren't!

It's the Simple Things

I'm sitting at my best friends house and while we were watching Harry Potter I started to think about different adventures we've had over the years we've known each other. We've done tons of things....got drunk in TJ, sought out thrills at Magic Mountain, gone to countless dinners and on countless mall trips and we've even gone to the spa together. But I think my favorite time together was just this year. After not seeing each other for about a month Amber invited me over for lunch and we just sat in her kitchen ate lunch and talked. It was simple but it was special, just a moment with a friend. No expectations or distractions and when it was over I felt refreshed and reenergized! It was one of those days that I will always remember because of the way I felt. It made me feel good.
What I'm trying to say is, you don't always needs big events to have a special moment with someone, sometimes it happens when you least expect it and you still don't realize it, until like me, you are sitting in a room and thinking back on the moments of your life.
If you do have these moment cherish them whether in the moment or in hindsight. Those moments are the great ones!

If LA is Rocking...

...call and make sure all your peeps are okay...well are ya?

The Twilight Series

On July 15th, I added a post called "READING". I mentioned in that post that I was currently reading a book called Twilight. Well it's the first book of the series by that same name. I just finished (well about two hours ago) the third book of the series which is titled Eclipse.
Three books in Exactly two weeks, that's the fastest I've read pretty much anything (expect the last to HP books). I probably would have read the books in a week if I had access to them back to back, but I had to wait a week to borrow Eclipse and a day or two to buy New Moon, which is the second book.
I'm really enjoying the books and the characters and can't wait to see what happens in the last book, Breaking Dawn, which is being released on August 2, 2008. I do have to wait for a while, but my bro just bought it as an early birthday gift, so I'm expecting it to be delivered next week sometime.
I'm excited and happy that I've found books that can keep me intrigued and "tuned" in. Can't wait til next week!

Ask and you shall receive

The trailer for Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince is now online...and I figure out how to upload it on here so here's the link....enjoy!



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jwNpg_xj6ck

When you're hurt and you don't know what to say

Sometimes you get hurt by someone and you don't really know what to say to them. If you're anything like me it all comes out wrong anyway and you end up lashing out and hurting that person. For me, sometimes all I need is to sit back and rely on myself for a time. Ignore the person/people who I've been hurt by.

That's what I'm going through. It's tough being hurt, but even tougher when the people/person who hurt you is the person you'd usually be able to confide in.

Harry Potter and the Half blood Prince

As some of you may know, I ADORE the Harry Potter series...although I wasn't allowed to read them in some peoples company (Momma Maria). So every year I look forward to either a new book or movie. And well as most of us know the Harry Potter story came to an end last summer, but we still have some movies to look forward too.

Warner Bros., well at least this is what the HP fansites said, put out a press release saying that the new teaser trailer for HP/HBP would be out with the Dark Knight. I can understand that, i heard from some that they saw it and from others that they didn't (go figure). But for the life of me, I can't find anything about it on line and the WB hasn't put up the new site either.

I know I'm jumping the gun a little, but come on, the movie comes out in November, I NEED something to get me through til then...my next major movie fix is HARRY. And I'm stating to get all itching...it doesn't help that I've run into a snag with the summer reading, but only until Saturday!

Oh, I guess I just have to wait!

Reading

I'm reading again, right now I'm reading this book called Twilight. It is the first in a series of 4 books called the "Twilight Series", it's about Vampires (one of my all time favorite subjects...although this is the first book about them I've ever read).
Twilight is very much a girls book, it's about an awkward teenage girl going to a new school in a town she's fairly familiar with (her dad lives there). And she stumbles across this boy who she can't help but fall in love with. I just read this very intense moment that all girls, at sometime in their life, wish for. Where you are finally told (and in return you tell) what true feeling are flowing between you and how incredible it all is, without being overly sexual or cheesy just really special and quite poetic!
I'm really captivated by it, I started reading it around 6:30 yesterday evening and I'm almost done with it...I read it on every break I had today and basically every time I wasn't on stage or didn't have to pay attention to my boss. I'm taking a short break to do laundry and some Internet stuff, but then I'm going straight back to it.

I love reading, but it's been difficult to stay focused on a book lately. A former co-worker who wrote and published a novel sent me her book to read and I got about halfway and then faded, not because it wasn't good, I just wasn't in the right head space for it. I wasn't completely drawn in because I didn't allow myself to be. I was still more interested in what I had recorded on my DVR when I got home from work then what I in was reading. But when I'm done with this book I am going to restart that one and then I have one more that another friend suggest I read before I move on to the next book in the Twilight Series. I can't wait, but I need to finish the other books first, it's just the right thing to do and now that I'm back in the mood for reading I can't get enough books....


So if you have any suggestions for books I might be interested in just suggest them. I like fantasy (Harry Potter...well he kinda changed my life, Lord of the Rings) and girlie books (in her shoes). So anything like that. Dude, I just remembered...I also am intending to read Mists of Avalon and The Vampire Chronicles...it's gonna be a good summer for reading. I'm excited.


Until Next Time....

Writing

I miss writing, I write on here all the time but it's not really writing...it's actually typing. Computers effect my everyday life now more then they ever have. Even when I was working in an office working on a computer all day I still had to write. I was writing constantly. There was always a pen in my hand and a notepad nearby. But now, it's different.

I don't work within an office but I do work with an computer all day. I work with a computer in the field. If I write it's to remind to me write a note about my computer for the tech department. It's not fulfilling enough to satisfy my my need to write. It's seem that without that pen in my hand I haven't really had the need to express anything creative either.

I used to be able to sit and let things flow out of men through my pen onto paper. But now, I'm just stagnant, there's nothing even remotely creative trapped in my mind with the need to come out of me. It's sad really, it's a blank emptiness that I don't seem that get rid of. I'm lost without this part of me and frankly, I don't see an end to it.

I love my job, but I'm starting to wonder if it is causing me to lose part of myself.

I started to really focus on this blog right around the time I stopped writing in my journal. I guess I view this space as a journal, although i tend to sensor some things I write about because of those who read it. Maybe if I start writing in my journal again I will find myself more content in the my creative side.

I don't know, I'm just talking right now. I'm talking to hear myself think, not really for anyone else. Isn't that what this whole blog thing is about anyway. I have no clue who really reads this, so I just write. More to get my opinions out of me because sometimes I just can't seem to hold them in and sometimes I just don't have anyone to share them with.

Movie Reviews...

It's been a while since I've reviewed a movie and rightfully so....

First, I have to give you the background on this post. I started to write this last week about 45 mins after seeing Wanted. I started off by going on and on about seeing Indiana Jones and how disappointed I was and all this hogwash about rewatching the originals and being bored with those too. Then I started in on Wanted...I was writing this all on my phone and because I was walking down a hill and holding my phone awkwardly, I ended up turning it off and unfortunately lost the whole thing...so this is a new version.


Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull.

All I have to say is that I want my 8 bucks back!


Wanted.

Kicks butt. You all know that I love Angelina Jolie and I'm falling in love with James McAvoy! This is the perfect film for him to really kick start his career in the US. It's fast paced, smart and well...mind blowing. I wasn't bored (like during Indy) and I appreciated all of the special effects even though I knew every bit of it was impossible. I didn't care that they were bending bullets and flipping cars and all that because I was strapped in for the ride and enjoying it all.
Some may not get it cause it's too much this and too much that and very unbelievable, but a good movie is supposed to take you out of your world and put you squarely in someone else's. Sometimes when I watch a movie on the big screen my own thoughts and life sneak in a pull me away from the story, but that did not happen at all during this movie. And that for me is outstanding.
So if you haven't gone to it Wanted yet, then go ahead and do it...you won't regret it!

Ipod Troubles

I was about to come on here and complain about my Ipod and how I have been having problems keeping it charged as of late. And how I thought I'd finally figured out the problem and that it stood charged all day yesterday but when I picked it up this morning and tried to play it, it was dead again.

That's what I was going to say, but after plugging it in to charge I realized that I had accidentally but it on lock so I couldn't do anything to it and it would look and act dead. Oh well, I'm a dork.

Lord of the Rings

So, I was in the midst of a Lord of the Rings marathon...but I had to give it up...I started watching the extras (I have the special edition versions of each movie...4 discs each, two for the movie, two for extras) their fantastic and even though I've seen them at least 50 times, I still have to watch them.

Then I found out today that my lovely friend Kristi is having a LotR themed birthday party...FANTASTIC...I'm not sure if I can go but I know it'll be wonderful.!

Dropping Friends and Making Enemies

Over my short 28 years of life I have learned that I don't do well with toxic people in my life and although I do believe that God orchestrates who comes in and out of your life at certain times I think he does it to teach us lessons.
After we learn the lessons needed we may lose touch or get too preoccupied on our new season of life that we don't talk as much as we used to. But then in some special cases there are those that you specifically choose to abandon by the wayside because you know nothing good can come from a continued relationship with that person.
I see all relationships as a dialogue, an open conversation that should not be one sided, but can be shared between two people where honesty and good will are coveted. Where you want the other person to be honest, even if you don't like what you hear you expect and even crave that type of relationship.

I have realized that over the last few years I have been unconsciously taking stock of my life and my relationships with people. And as I look at it, my life, the way it is now, I have found that I have slowly started to move away from some friendships. Some because of time and distance (although I still try to communicate with those people) others because I no longer crave them in my life the way I once did and then still there are some that I realized are toxic and had to remove them from my life and completely give up the relationship.
Sometimes I look at those friendships and I'm sadden by the end result of such a potentially satisfying dialogue...I'm sad because I am scared or because I see that people are running into situations that aren't healthy and don't want help to step away from them. Also, I'm sad because some of those friendships failed because of pain, blame and the unnerving fact that sometimes people just can't say I'm sorry.
I'm never intentionally went out to hurt or harm anyone. When I give I give my all, but once you lose my respect you lose me. It's hard to get that back and most times I'm not willing to try. But even though I say this, I understand that I am also to blame for broken friendships. Generally when I'm hurt I run away, I don't want to set myself up for the pain again and I stay away from the people who hurt me. And when I try to help someone and I'm rejected I react in the same way...not usually at first, but over time...because I don't want to be there dump rug...
There are people that I've pissed off recently, I may have hurt them, but selfishly, it's for my own good. They've found others to replace me and will be fine. My season in their life, with this friendship is over. I'm okay with that and if they hate me...that's fine too.

Graduations and the heat...

Last week I went to two Graduations...the first was for my little sister Danae who graduated from Sierra Vista High School. She walked across the stage to thunderous applause and yelling from those who love and our very proud of her.
She will be attending Cal State University Los Angeles in the fall. Good luck Danae!

The second graduation I attended was for my friend Sam-Ana who graduated from Cal Poly Pomona with a Master's Degree in Education. She got a light blue hood and a black cap and gown...and we all applauded as she walk out of the tent holding her newly earned degree.
Working full time, being a wife and mother and going to school is truly aspiring and awesome.


I'm at work today. And its hot....in fact its been hot all week and it will continue to be hot....its crazy that's its already this hot and its only the 3rd week of June. My summer will be interesting, hopefully we don't have any record days this summer like we did last summer. At this point, I have a feeling I will be dark and possibly melted by the conclusion of summer 08.

I hope you all are staying cool and congrats to any graduates I don't know about.

Okay

So, it looks like I am back to working days (for the most part), for the next two weeks I have NO nights shifts and I hope that I don't get anymore any time soon.

I took my braids out and got a cute new hair cut, not as short as I would have liked, but it looks good so I need to get a picture up so you can see it.

And, last but not least...I'm going to Idaho this summer....I will be in this town called Louiston. Why am I going there you ask....well I'm going with some friends to visit their parents but they move back to Los Angeles. It's gonna be fun....we were gonna drive but I think we might fly instead....it'll come out to about the same price in the end...unless gas...I can't talk about gas it makes me sad. I love you all my Ventura Folks, but I fear I may never see you again cause I can't afford to drive up there! : (

I gotta go to be, have to be up by 5am! Yikes, that's the bad thing about working days when you're job is 27 miles away and you have to be there by 7:45am! Yikes....to bed with me!

So...

Last Friday, I had the opportunity to spend the day with the Main manager for my department at work. It was technically the final training day and he conducts it. We basically learn how our jobs effect the resort as a whole and why our work is so important.
I was excited about the whole thing until I found out who else would be participating in that day of training. It didn't turn out as bad as I thought but the people I knew would make fools of themselves did. I'm just glad it wasn't me. I made sure that I separated myself from them and I didn't look back.
In the end it was an exciting day, I had a lot of fun and learn alot. I already knew how much I enjoyed my job, but now that I know exactly how my work effects Disney directly I can take that much more pride in it!

Sorry I can't go in detail, but I had to swear an oath not to tak about the day and I won't anymore.

Lazy People (I'm totally venting)

So I can positively say that I work with a bunch of lazy people. Not all, of course, but a few of them are very lazy characters who don't really like to work and try to get away with as much "downtime" as they possibly can. Its upsetting to me because they try to get me to "lazy" around with them and think that I'm mad when I choose to actually complete why work before I go sit down.
Why do people hound you about how you're feeling when you stop talking and choose to actually put your nose to the grind and do your job, when your tired of hearing them talk and you just want to be alone with your thoughts? I think that's my number 1 pet peeve, people who have to ask you 20 times if you're okay just because you're standing by yourself or you're not saying anything in the conversation, just leave me alone. I will talk when I choose to talk, until then I am choosing to be silent and still and introspective.
I just wish some people would get a clue!

I found something to talk about...

Inappropriate commercials!!!!


There are some things we don't need to know, and some we don't care to know. At times people in our lives choose to share "too much information" with us and we either accept it or call them on it. Those are friends, but sometimes we hear, see or are told things that we just don't need to know. And there's nothing we can do about them....I'm talking commercials!

Have you ever been watching a television show one minute and the next you're watching a woman talking about her period and tampons or see two people about to get it on advertising for KY Jelly. Or finally (my personal favorite) two old folks giving each other the "eye" or sitting in bathtubs side by side holding hands. These are images that I'm sure help people but not all of us need or want to experience them.

I don't want to know about Viagra, Cialis or any other erectile dysfunction medication. I don't need to think about old folks doing it. I'm sure the men don't care to know about all the symptoms that come with a period and how to get rid of them. This is why we have friends, mother, fathers and Doctors, those people are here to help and share information with you about these types of things.

I wish advertisers would help by not putting these commercials EVERYWHERE, but its their job and its our job to watch, I have to admit, I have gone out and purchased new things because of these types of commercials, but most times when they come on, I just change the channel!

Stuck

I haven't written in awhile because I have again found that I have nothing to say. Nothing that I find important enough to share or that I fell comfortable sharing because, frankly, when you put something online it can fall into the wrong hands and haunt you forever.
Its a new month, summer is almost here. I hope all is well with you. Have a good day!