Yay New Year!

Welcome to 2011!


I'm very happy about all the possibilities that await me in this new year.


I have a feeling that things will go well this year. It won't be a breeze or a walk through the park, but I think I'll be happier and merrier throughout! I'm not going to let anyone kill my happiness this year.


I can't control other peoples mood, thoughts, hearts and words, but I can control mine.




I hope you have a wonderful, happy and blessed year!

Thanksgiving

 Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and for so many families this is a day of love, respect and togetherness. For others, not so much....

  I come from the not so side of this equation. My family has never been one to have a calm holiday. Whether it's a drunken fight or an attitude run amuck. Things don't ever end on a good note. So as we prepare for the first Thanksgiving dinner at our house in almost a decade, I live in fear of the malice that will undoubtedly sweep through and land on me. With my stomach in knots and my expectations low I go into another Thanksgiving wishing I had to work.

Christmas Aft!

I was not looking forward to celebrating Christmas at all. I didn't want to deal with people coming to the house, my grandma getting drunk and having to deal with my father who doesn't want to do anything, but wants to take all the credit. And all that stuff happened, but something unexpected happened too.

I was lamenting on Facebook about how much I wasn't looking forward to Christmas and Martha invited me up to Ventura to spend Christmas with them...then Jacquie said I should come up for Christmas Aft fondue at her house (it was more like come up here or feel my wraith). So on Christmas day I told my mom that I would be going to Ventura on Saturday and I invited her, but she didn't want to go. So I went and you know what! I had a ball....

I really enjoy the Gill, Alderson, Bangs family and felt so humbled by all the hugs and warm wishes I received when I got there. Even the kids were cool (even though I'm not sure they knew who I was). I spent the whole day there, just hanging out, talking, playing games, eating and enjoying the day! I had so much fun that I will fondly remember this day as my Christmas.

It was really nice to be around all that love and joy for the day. I had a great time!

So Many Things I Want to Say!!!

I've been thinking about several different topics I want to write about. Some very personal, some social and some just celebrity gossip nonsense. I decided to list them below...and I will post a topic in detail on each one, but I just don't have the time at this moment. Over the next week, I will complete the thought(s) I have on each topic.


1. Why aren't I married yet?

2. Did Adam Lambert go too far?

3. New Moon movie review.

4. Doesn't matter if your fat or skinny as long as your striving to be your best.

5. Holding on to what doesn't matter.

6. Thanksgiving!

7. Happiness is a choice!

Seven days, seven topics...I should get started. See ya later! And enjoy!

Stop the Insanity!!!

I have decided that I'm not going to participate in the time honored tradition of making New Year's Resolutions and I'll tell you why. They don't work! We make these "promises" to people, but not really ourselves, at least that's the case with me! I've tried to do all sorts of things, from losing weight to saving money etc. but when it comes down to it, I'm truly not motivated to do anything.
So this year I'm not going to sit back and tell people what I'm going to change, because I'll be lying. So for those of you who would ask me about my potential resolutions, here's my answer...

I don't have any. I'm not going to lie just for conversation. I don't feel the need to add pressure to my life or complicate myself. I'm done with that falseness. I'm happy and hopefully that this happiness will continue throughout this year. Hallelujah!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING

Hello,

I'm don't expect to get on the computer tomorrow so while I have the time I just wanted to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving...and to let you know some of the things I'm grateful for

This year I'm most grateful for the light on my path....God doesn't give us a clear path with overwhelming light. He likes to give us a rocky path with as little light as possible, so that we can't rely on him to help us make the decisions we need to make. He helped me this year, before I could even ask for it, He lit my path not before I took a step, but as my foot was coming down...and sometimes, He just picked me up and did all the walking. I'm still struggling with somethings, but I know that God is with me on this journey and I'm truly Thankful for that.


What are you thankful for?

Hey...

everyone!

Hope you are all having a wonderful start to your summer (and staying cool). Just wanted to drop a line so that you know I'm still alive and kicking.
Everything is a little crazy now that it's summer, but since I have a little time at the moment I just wanted to say Hello and Happy 4th!

New Years Resolutions!!!

Today one of my co-workers asked me if I had any New Year Resolutions. I said yes, but I know that I probably won't keep any of them. No, I'm not going to tell you what they are, they're personal to me. I've decided that this year instead of telling everyone what I hope to accomplish this year, I'm going to write myself a letter and in six months I'll open it and see how far I made it with them. I usually fail within the first week. But maybe, if I take it easy and try not to do anything too crazy I'll succeed. Or maybe like usual I'll just brush them side and do my own thing.
We like to set ourselves up for things, but instead of making 5 or 10 resolutions, maybe we should just make one and instead of alot of them at the beginning of the year we should just take them on slowing throughout the year. For example, if you want to give up smoking...start that at the beginning, that's a task that can take years to accomplish, so instead of stacking it next to losing weight and reading more of the Bible and I don't stop watching porn, just start with the smoking thing and as you get more comfortable....then stop get on an excercise routine....then the reading and so forth. If you start all that at once...you might just give it all up.
But I don't know that's just my opinion. Well GOODLUCK with your resolutions and have a wonderful 2007.

The Day After Christmas

Hey, so what did you guys do today, the day after christmas? Did you veg, shop or work...
Me I vegged on the computer and worked on my myspace page all day. And now I'm watching High School Musical...So have a good rest of your week. Peace Out!!!

Happy Thanksgiving

I just wanted to wish you everyone a HAPPY, HEALTHY AND SAFE THANKSGIVING. I hope you are spending this day with family and I hope you have things in your life you are truly thankful for. Don't forget to thank someone for being a great addition to your life.


Love ya

Easter 2006

Every possible road I choose to walk leads me to you, but my dirty hands are unworthy to touch you, so although your arms are outstretched, I turn down another road and choose to fight against an awesome pain.
My brow sweats as the sky above me darkens, my heart weeps for something, someone to save me, then, there you are, arms open but my feet are too muddy to walk along your streets.
So I back away and begin to run trying to find a way to be worthy...hours, days, weeks, months I journey and in my weariness I find you. Your arms extended but my clothes are to worn to stand in your presence. Ashamed I hide myself until I find away to leave you again.
I sin, lie, cheat, curse, judge, envy, steal and throw stones of hate. I’ve killed and before I know, there you are…
On the cross; beaten, bloody, bruised and broken. I run to you then realize my hands are clean, but yours are dirty
My feet and path are clear, but yours are muddy
As I fall to the ground my tears fall like the blood from your wounds
I shield my eyes from you, because there’s no way I can look upon Your face.

“I did this for you”, he whispers in my ear as he lifts me into his arms
“I’ve never left you”, he says, as He wipes my eyes , sets me on my path and leads me home.
“And I never will…”