Only the Lonely

  Jobless...I find myself trying to keep up with my New Year goals...one of which is investing in my friendships. I have had a couple of lunches and hang outs with friends over the last couple of months but I still feel lonely in the friend department. It's not for lack of everyone trying. I think this is just a state of mind that I'm in right now. Just the weight of not working and being home with no daily interaction with people other than my family.

  I don't know, I feel like I'm hitting an area of life where I'm standing on the edge of a knife...I can fall clear or slide down and get all cut up. It's weird, and this loneliness hits a odd times. I miss people and I miss my working self. But for now God has me here waiting on him and learning about myself. I guess this is another step in my walk, discovering what really makes me tik and what really makes me me.

  But it's definitely a lonely process to go through.